That’s kind of weird. I woke up today and yet my arm remained asleep. Apparently, it had hit a snooze button in my brain. “Just ten more minutes.”
Can anyone explain to me why an MRI for a dog-sized animal cost thousands of dollars? Heck, I can get a recreational MRI done for myself for about $800. Stupid money. Stupid medical establishment and their stupid expensive radiation. Stupid aging.
My own fears
Are right-wing pundits trying to get Barack Obama killed? Are they? They are so intent on scaring the crap out of their fan base even before Obama takes office. Not a peep from these asswipes when the Bush Administration was making a good run at Fascism: secret prisons, warrantless wire tapping, torture, outsourcing torture, viewing citizens’ private information (like library books) and habits, “enemy combatants” where you can be swept up and imprisoned forever with no recourse — disappeared forever at the whim of the government. with no trial and no proof and no nothing. Not a peep!
Obama wants to give the middle class a tax break and increase the Peace Corps and that other organization and all of a sudden these guys are “afraid” to the point of comparing him to Hitler and saying that he wants a military uprising to overthrow the government.
I’m seriously concerned that someone is going to try to kill President Obama. When this is going around on the internet: “All you hunters gather ’round. There’s a nigger trying to get into the White House.”
Not to mention all the other stuff, it’s not a good sign. They’re being stoked by this right-wing fear mongering that is strictly for the sake of political manipulation. Poisoning the well of good will. Rush Limbaugh, the sack of assholes that he is, called our economic problems the “Obama recession”. [scratching my head in confusion]
But anyway, I’ll do another blog about fear mongering, despair and how it’s so not kosher (anti-Christian) and how the various wings bearing the Republican moniker have become everything they once stood against. Good luck turning that around. Seriously. The country will be better off for it.
You know that whole Prop 8 thing? Isn’t it strange, the interpretations of the vote? I’m skeptical that blacks and hispanics were the reason it passed. Not that a lot of black people aren’t socially conservative. Or let’s just get real here. Most people are homophobic. There. I said it. I’ve seen some exit poll numbers but then heard of some statistics. Minority vote vs. the new voters vote (which, of course, includes minorities).
But still, folks aren’t quite ready for gay marriage. Some aren’t ready to acknowledge gayness, period. So when it’s put out there, yea or nay, they go nay.
It’s a shift and it will take time. Maybe another generation. But it’s coming.
It’s amazing how many people who have little sense of personal morals or ethics become especially pious when it comes to homosexuality. You know, people who go out, party, drink, maybe do a little drugs, little casual sex, maybe an affair. People who, otherwise, have no sense of moral outrage when it comes to any larger social issues become holier than thou. Moderate Christians will start quoting from Leviticus: abomination, put to death. Nevermind that eating shellfish is also an abomination and rebellious children were also worthy of the death sentence.
Point being that people sure do like to pick and choose. If it’s what I do, it’s okay. If it’s what they do, society will die. (I’ve got theories re: homophobia but I’ll save them for another time.)
As I’ve admitted before, I’m not 100% open minded. I won’t pretend to be. Gay marriage is … different. It’s a change. Change is generally threatening or stress inducing. I’m upset every time “they” change the flavors in a pack of Sour Starbursts (I miss you, grape and orange).
But you know what? The more people that want to commit and settle down and raise a family together, the more stable the basic unit of our society is. There are Britney Spears Vegas weddings. There are 50+ year marriages ’til death does them part. The divorce rate is around 50%, last I heard, and that’s on YOU, heteros and even evangelical Christian heteros.
I suspect that gay marriages will be the same. This just in: gay people are human beings, too. They’re not worse than you. They’re not better than you. They’re just like you. Except gay. Every time I say something like, “Well, the (stereotypical) gay lifestyle is unhealthy and promiscuous to an extreme and full of drugs and debauchery…”, I think of the Jerry Springer show. I think of the time I went to a bar/club and one of the guys I was with walks away and shows up half hour later with a woman on his arm ready to go back to his place.
Unhealthy or risky behavior is unhealthy or risky whether it’s in the gay context or the straight context. So my argument crumbles to dust. That’s not to dismiss the totally crazy, often drug-addled, HIV/AIDS inducing lifestyle that is prevalent in some segments of the gay community but … you know. Specks in their eyes, motes in your own.
So the other day I was reading some comments from friends on Facebook. Saw some articles in the news. Heard some bloviating on the radio and I had a thought.
I’m 36 years old. I’ve never really had a girlfriend. Haven’t done much dating. I didn’t go to any dances at school. Very few parties. Didn’t go to the prom. I have never been in love, assuming that being in love requires reciprocation. Physical affection is non-existent in my life. All of this despite numerous, frequent or constant crushes and infatuations and adoration. Not in a creepy way (I hope), but still. On top of that, life pulls and tugs us away from each other: friends, family, acquaintances, colleagues. Time puts distance between us. I have a fear — and it grows like a cancer with every passing year — that I will grow old alone and I will die alone. I want to have kids, like 4 or 5, and the thought of finding someone who’s so amazing that I want to spend the rest of my life with her is as inspiring as it is intimidating.
If/when I finally do find someone or someone finds me … how would I feel if people told me that it wasn’t real. And that they refused to recognize that love as being legitimate or worthy. (By the way, in the Commonwealth of Virginia, it’s no surprise that interracial marriage was once illegal. But the law also stated that children who were interracial weren’t legitimate and would receive no benefits of the Commonwealth.)
If two people, two consenting adults, have found love and choose to commit to each other, there’s nothing more legitimate than that. Life is short. Time is merciless. Death is imminent. We live and we can only hope to live to the fullest, to share that with someone. To share your life with someone. Finding someone that you want to come home to, whose face you want to see when you wake up in the morning. For the rest of your life.
There is no religion, no dogma, no scripture, edict, tenet or decree that is more meaningful or more powerful than that.
To strive for love, companionship, hope, comfort, affection, approval, nurturing in the face of the shit storm that life can be, what more is there.
That is not something to be voted on, much less to be voted against.